i came back.
sad.
but because i came back, not related to you.
the whole feeling about, is almost gone.
i'm better and better everyday.
and i guess because i understand
why and how.
in this trip i had the chance to meet two of my fav musicians ever.
Dino and Giulio.
i spoke A LOT with them, like normal people do.
BECAUSE WE, me and them, *ARE* NORMAL PEOPLE.
and that's the feeling i love the most.
we shared.
words, ideas, life.
why i tell you this?
'cause, like i said, i don't believe in differences. i don't believe in ranks.
and soler remark me one more time this simple idea.
what was the "problem" with you?
i already say it in the last post.
in italian.
i fix it now in english too.
probably, i'm the most snob and coldest person in the world.
i only met the second most snob and coldest person after me.
and this was no good at all.
i'm not saying you are "cold" with people.
you are always smiling and cheering and loving.
as i am.
but.
we are cold. rational.
we are emotionless. or we try to be.
so, when i met you, and you were holding my hands, and we looked each other in the eyes, i was thinking "why the hell i'm here? you are calvin chen, the human being. and i don't know
you. and i never spoke with
you.
and neither you. you, the human being, and i, the human being, are the same. and we don't know each other. so why the hell i'm supposing to be here for you?".
and, probably, you were thinking if your mum had already prepared your dinner. Or about the laundry to do at home. Or something like that.
so cold.
And, i must remark this, not because you were cold.
you were smiling and very very kind and gentle and so raffinate and a truly prince inside.
but we were distant.
No link at all.
And, I say this, this was 99%
because of me.
like i said.
i am the most snob and cold person in the world.
and that's it.
anyway.
*I* have a tons of laundry to do now.
